Can We Really Do It?

I haven't blogged much lately. Between my husband returning to work, being mommy to 3 small kids (one whom we are trying to potty train), and the general day-to-day, I have found myself exhausted. Not to mention, with everything going on in the country, mentally exhausted as well. Most nights, I would rather prop my feet up and veg on the latest episode of one of our favorite shows. However, I have started a journey that I have started a million times before. A million failures, a million mistakes, a million pounds lost and gained. I am working to take control of my health...again.

Again, you say? Yes! Again. In college, I was able to get to the smallest I had been in my life, having lost 70 pounds over a matter of 2 years. 31 kilos for my non-American audience (let's be honest, Americans are the only ones who do not use the metric system). But life, poor lifestyle decisions, PCOS, and popping out 3 kids in a 15-month period, I am in the lead role to play the Michelin man.

Why write about this? Because for once, I want to take you on my journey. At the end of the day, yes, I am doing this for my family. But truly, I am wanting to do this for me. And I just don't want to do it alone. I am tired of not having energy, tired of being and feeling tired. It is not easy. In fact, it is bloody hard. When your entire system is slow, ravaged by a hormonal disease, and overcoming mental obstacles, it is easy to say why bother? I often wonder why this has to be a difficult battle for me? I didn't grow up in an abusive home. Actually, my parents were rock stars. I may never fully know why, but I do know that in order to invest in my children and marriage, I need to invest in myself.

For me, I want this to be a steady, consistent journey. Not a sprint to the finish line. A wise woman told me in college, it took years to get this way and it will take years to correct it. She was right. Still is right. Many of us have our own battles, our own mountains to overcome. Yours may not be your health, it may be negative outlook on life, another form of addiction, etc. At the end of the day, I know this has to be a lifelong commitment. I think it will be worth it though. To know I am putting the best into our family and investing in me.

To end, a famous guy once said: "Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts." At the end of the day, I know I can do this. It will take persistence, faithfulness, and maybe some courage (cause who likes jogging in public).

What is something you want to achieve in your life? Is it a career goal, life goal, etc? Can we do it? Yes, we can!